To Have or Not Have Responsibility?

The other day I was coming home from getting groceries when I saw a guy that I dated once, before T. I live in an incredibly small town, so it’s not that hard to run into old “others” if you dated more than one! When I saw him (still single), it got me thinking about my single days, footloose and fancy free as they say.  Choosing to do what I want, when I wanted it!

Last night when I got home from work, I was told that we needed to get groceries RIGHT AWAY!  M had oral surgery the day before and was on soft foods only…I wasn’t prepared, so at first I was going to mark it up to a step-mom fail.  I trudged to the grocery store…at 5:30 on a Friday night when all I wanted to do was put on yoga pants, eat supper, and relax.  But, I chose to be a step-mom and I love those boys, so in reality, I would have walked 500 miles to get him food he could eat if I had to!  After I got home with the jello (for finger jello), Toy Story chicken noodle soup, go-gurt, and other treats I bought him, I was a hero!  So, while it wasn’t exactly what I WANTED to do, I couldn’t imagine my life any other way!

This morning, if I had been single, I could have gotten to leisurely lay around watching girly TV, drinking my coffee, deciding what I was going to do for the day.  This morning instead, I was unloading and reloading the dishwasher for the 2nd time in 24 hours, my coffee got cold while I was making breakfast and then, before I knew it, I was schlepping M to horse riding lessons, getting a few more groceries that I had forgotten, dropping off bills at their respective places, picking M up from horse riding lessons, going shopping for a Halloween costume, making 2 lunches since M is on soft foods only, and then….climbing on the roof for a rocket that T & M shot off and landed there, a midst cleaning the kitchen and working on laundry!

I hear people say that they wish they could go back to the simpler days when they didn’t have so much responsibility and I’m pretty sure that I’m guilty of thinking that before and yet last night when M asked me to read to him (I could tell he wasn’t feeling well) I stopped making supper to do so and I realized….I wouldn’t change all this for the world.  I guess that’s all part of Learning As I Go!

2 Replies to “To Have or Not Have Responsibility?”

  1. Your posts are always so thought-felt and make me smile! I wouldn’t change where I’m in life for anything ever. Have you ever heard the saying, “The years go fast and the days go slow”? Whenever I think about how it’d be nice to have a “day off” I think about that quote.

    1. Oh, thank you! I can say that they come directly from my heart…especially whenita related to the boys! And the years do go so fast! I cant believe how much the boys have grown, changed, matured since i first started spending time with them! Time needs to slow down!!

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